New blog!

Hi friends! (just in case anyone still reads this blog. haha!)

Here's my new (and hopefully last one!:D) blog:

mainichieissarang.blogspot.com

It just means everday is love. haha. I had fun mixing Japanese and Korean.
Mainichi=everyday, sarang=love

and somehow because I'm loving "nichie" as my new nickname!

cheers! :D

So long

This shall be my last post for this blog. I am planning to start a new one (and hopefully keep it this time!). But I won't be deleting this one for old time's sake. It was such a good feeling re-reading everything I wrote before.

So for now, so long. :)

setting things right

Tomorrow will be my last enrollment as a UP student. And with that thought in mind, I have a lot of things going on in my mind.

For the past few months, I've been letting my heart take control of me. I've been letting my heart rule over my mind. And sadly, I think it's been doing me bad.

I have to get my priorities back in line. Acads, Church Service, Family, Friends.

I would be lying if I tell you that having a relationship doesn't cross my mind. It does. It crosses my mind more than you can imagine. With me being already 21 and my parents asking me if I have a boyfriend already, it would definitely be in my mind almost all the time.

But then, I can't balance everything well just yet. I mean I will surely slack off in one of these aspects if my lovelife suddenly come into existence.

So there,I'll probably be just putting that on hold for a while. That aspect will definitely wait anyway. =)

So there, I will start setting and making things right again.

I know You won't leave me. You'll tell me when it is my time already. =)

and after 4 years...I realize it's still you

As I'm writing this blog, it's been exactly four years.

It's been exactly four years since we first "went out". It's been exactly four years since you made me believe that I can love.

But in that 4 years I could say that everything wasn't easy. There were times that I wanted to give up already because you didn't seem to care. There were times when I wanted to ask you point-blank kung ano ba tayo kahit alam kong wala akong karapatan. There were times na I despised you and times that I loved you. May times din kinikilig ako ng bongga at may times na naiirita na ako.

I went away for an exchange program. I've had crushes in between and even had an "official" one just recently. Kala ko sapat na ang isang taon na malayo ako sa iyo para marealize kong wala na talaga.

But after all this time...after all these years...after all the tears...I still realize that it is STILL you.

thank you.

Right now, I'm going through a really tough time. For the nth time, I've had my heart broken. And what hurts the most is that everything juts seemed to be a play for you. But that's not the whole point of this blog. I just want to write about how awesome and blessed I am to have such good friends.

I'm so lucky to have friends who would honestly tell me everything. They would not think twice of telling me that I was wrong or I rushed into things or I was too forgiving.

Yet, they are kind enough to give me hug, lend me an ear whenever I talked. They make me realize that what I am going through is normal...and this happens to everyone at one point in their lives.

This time, I will take my time. And I know, once I find that perfect guy and at the right situation and circumstances, you guys will be the first one to be happy for me. ^^

With friends like these, what more can I ask for, right? ^^ 

because it's almost been two months...

okay, so a lot has happened since the last time I blogged.

breaking up.getting back together.falling in love again. falling out of love. on the rocks.

well, that pretty much summarizes what's happening right now. I don't want to discuss it any further. but yeah, I am stressed out right now and I just want to get that sweet, sweet freedom.

adding salt to the injury, I'm messing up my academics big time. I failed my sociology exam big time...and I just can't get over it.

but I know right now why all of this has been happening. I haven't been giving my 100% already. I know I can do better.

I will not give up yet. There's still the half of the semester to catch up. And I have to just get my focus and life  back on track.

Sorry Papa God. I know I've been very busy and "excuseful" lately. But now, I will start living with no complaints anymore. Sorry and thank You for this wake-up call.

motivated more than ever. thank you for making me get back on my senses.

it was a risk worth taken

Maybe, when it comes to love, I just got to keep my heart guarded for a little more time. =)

I have always been a hopeless romantic. I've lived on the idea of happily ever afters, fairytales, prince charming and forevers mainly because my parents have always made me believe so.

And many times, I've been disappointed and hurt. I've hoped. I've loved and lost. And as time passes by, it hurts more and more.


I started believing people when they started telling me that I was unfortunate in love because I was successful in my academics (or at least I'm getting by.). It even came to the point that I wanted to ditch my academics already just because I wanted to find a love life because everyone else seem to have found one already.HAHA


Recently, I was able to  talk to a good friend of mine. She told me, maybe I wasn't really looking for love. Maybe I wasn't looking for it because I am already receiving much love from the people around me. She made realize how much my parents loved me, how much my brothers were willing to protect me, how much love my friends were giving me, and most importantly how much love He was giving me.


Likewise, after my self-reflection. I realized I still have to much baggage in me. I still do not love myself 100%, I still am continuously searching for Him, and maybe, I still have that emotional baggage within me.


I just need some more time alone. I just need to learn to love myself a little more. I just need to be alone for a little while. I need to re examine my priorities in life.


And even if I am 21 already, I am not really in a rush. I mean, I have the whole world to explore yet. And when that time and person finally comes, I will be ready for him and will welcome him in my life...100%. And he will be ready for me too. Because we have waited and prepared ourselves for the one the He has prepared for us.

But still, thank you for the 75 days that you made me feel loved, cared for and valued. Thank you for making me believe again and realize that I am still a person worthy to be loved. I will never forget you...and I will forever be thankful to you. Maybe, someday. =)