it was a risk worth taken

Maybe, when it comes to love, I just got to keep my heart guarded for a little more time. =)

I have always been a hopeless romantic. I've lived on the idea of happily ever afters, fairytales, prince charming and forevers mainly because my parents have always made me believe so.

And many times, I've been disappointed and hurt. I've hoped. I've loved and lost. And as time passes by, it hurts more and more.


I started believing people when they started telling me that I was unfortunate in love because I was successful in my academics (or at least I'm getting by.). It even came to the point that I wanted to ditch my academics already just because I wanted to find a love life because everyone else seem to have found one already.HAHA


Recently, I was able to  talk to a good friend of mine. She told me, maybe I wasn't really looking for love. Maybe I wasn't looking for it because I am already receiving much love from the people around me. She made realize how much my parents loved me, how much my brothers were willing to protect me, how much love my friends were giving me, and most importantly how much love He was giving me.


Likewise, after my self-reflection. I realized I still have to much baggage in me. I still do not love myself 100%, I still am continuously searching for Him, and maybe, I still have that emotional baggage within me.


I just need some more time alone. I just need to learn to love myself a little more. I just need to be alone for a little while. I need to re examine my priorities in life.


And even if I am 21 already, I am not really in a rush. I mean, I have the whole world to explore yet. And when that time and person finally comes, I will be ready for him and will welcome him in my life...100%. And he will be ready for me too. Because we have waited and prepared ourselves for the one the He has prepared for us.

But still, thank you for the 75 days that you made me feel loved, cared for and valued. Thank you for making me believe again and realize that I am still a person worthy to be loved. I will never forget you...and I will forever be thankful to you. Maybe, someday. =)