and here's a cliche-ish post

oh yes, I'm going to write about the most overrated topic...and yes, you got it correctly, it's about the dreaded four letter word, LOVE.

You are probably thinking, "oh, that 20 year old's going to swoon over a guy she's liking now.and she'll write about all the cheesy stuff they do together." Well, let me disappoint you already, I am not going to do that. I am not going to write about the guy I like right now.So if I disappointed you, you're 100% free to go. =)

Because I'm living far away from home, I don't have my mom to talk to about these kind of stuff. And besides, I still feel awkward talking about it with my mother. Anyway,that's not the point. Here in Korea, I have found a new family. We came from different walks of life, different experiences, and that's what makes it interesting. Maybe I'll write about my Korea family on our 6th month.Anyway,because we also differ in age group, talking could be quite interesting. There are those who think like a child, while there are those who think mature enough based from their experiences. Well, that's not the whole point here either. What's important is that we learn from each other at least in one way or another. And yesterday was a very long yet interesting day.

I thought I have fallen in love before. But yesterday, I was proven wrong. Love is such a complicated thing/feeling/situation that, honestly, I think I am not yet ready for.There's always going to be smiles and tears, winning and losing, and holding on and letting go.

Yesterday, I heard of the news that two of my friends broke up with their long-time partners. One was of 7 years, the other was of 6 years. I can see how much both were hurting. The one I can see physically. She couldn't stop crying over the feeling of losing a bestfriend and partner at the same time. The other one I can see through her facebook posts. But one thing that was common to them was they were both hurting. And in love, someone's always going to try to hold on...but then eventually, someone also decides to let go. But I know, they'll find who is meant for them someday.

Love is just too complicated. I realized I should not try to force myself into falling in love. It'll just come when it's ought to come. Rather than spending time looking for that "someone", I'd spend my time now loving myself and preparing myself in all aspects, so that when I meet him, I can easily say, "I'm ready now."

And yes, I am still not giving up on the idea of a happy ending and a forever. I ain't given up on the idea of "my perfect love story."

Ate's, I know you haven't too. We'll always be with you. =)

(my thoughts are all messed up, I just wanted to write about this anyway.)