십육

16 days left.

16 days left that I will call you 오빠 in person. 16 days left when I will hear your voice. 16 days left that I will see your smile. 16 days left that I can hang out with you.

I know how much you miss home. You've told me a lot of times. So I don't want to be selfish and tell you not to go. I know how much you miss your mom's cooking that you say you can't sleep because you're looking forward to eating your mom's mandus again. I know how you feel. I felt that way during my first three months here.So I won't stop you.

I will miss you. I will miss how you would suddenly talk to me in QQ. I will miss all the times that you scare me with your voice. I will miss all the times that  you tease me.I will miss it when you wave at me when you see me. I will miss it when you play all "suplado" and ignore me. I will miss it when you ask me if I'm okay or not...I will miss YOU.

Of course we can still talk in QQ or in facebook but everything will be different.

We won't be able to walk beside each other after class. I won't be able to laugh at you when you try to speak in English. There won't be any more random "staring" games at class. No more jokes and teases. I won't hear you call me 동생 anymore. No more blocking-the-door games. I won't be able to compliment you everytime you looked great. We won't be able to play arm wrestling anymore.We wont be able to eat lunch or dinner in the 식당 anymore.

Right now, I'm almost in tears as I'm typing this. 16 days left for me to look at your face. I will never know if ever you can go to the Philippines or I can go to China or we can ever meet again. I don't want to think that December 19,2011 will be the last time we will be seeing each other but as far as I can see it, it is.

Honestly, I don't want to sleep right now. If I sleep, another day will pass. If another day passes, it will be that closer to THAT day.