I just want to release this.

I heard that you and her are being extremely close.

I know even before that you two were close.Yes, my heart felt a pinch of jealousy but it eventually became okay. We were living in the same country. Assurances were easier made.

But everything now is different. I'm just scared that the saying "out of sight, out of mind" will be true for us.

And yes, right now, I am really jealous. You and her are closer now...physically, and maybe emotionally as well. I know I shouldn't be. She has someone special. And I believe she just thinks of you as a friend. And I think she's also aware.

I just need to talk to you again. Call me a fool, but all I need to read is your sweet talk. Just one statement. Just one answer for my question. Just one assurance. I'll be okay.

And I hate the fact that even if  you're a couple of miles and bodies of water away from you, you're affecting me so much.

This day just seems to be a bad day for me. A while ago, I was in tears and I didn't really know why. I guess I am stressed about going back to university. At the same time, I miss every scent, every corner, every thing about Korea. Then I knew of this.

I am hating this situation right now. But at the same time, I wouldn't give this up...as long as there's still that 0.001% probability, I won't give up this fight.